The Beginning of Something New

Today was the first day of the next phase of my life. I was officially admitted to Sacramento State University. Regardless of whether or not I attend Sac State in the fall, it is a life changing moment because it defines what is to come. It is become more real and apparent that I will be transferring in the fall. That is if nothing falls through. I am always so worried about something falling through and not being able to complete my goals. I was recently telling someone about my "six month plan" to my way to becoming a University student. I keep telling myself that I have my life in order and that my life will pan out as planned, however there is a slight shadow of doubt that follows me. For the meantime, it feels great to have a plan, but sometimes simply having this plan makes me anxious. Although I am very excited, it makes me most worried to have the thought that I may not be able to complete this plan. But I'm continuing to have faith and take advice from friends and family. Whatever happens, it happens for a reason and because it's where God has chosen to place me. My mom says she is praying for me and I appreciate that from her. Simply because I've spent most of my life trying to maintain her approval and be a good goal achieving daughter. Soon, I will hopefully have admissions answers from the other two universities that I applied to and I will be able to make that life changing decision, but I'm just curious about what's going to happen in between and how I'm going to feel when I finally get there.

Starting Fresh

Today I made the decision to delete all my previous posts from when I started this blog. I believe that I am not the same woman I was over two years ago when I started this. The basic principles are there, my goals are still similar, but I certainly have grown. There are very important parts of my life and my process which are missing and I don't want a vague account of me laying around out there on the Internet. If I'm going to be out there, I want the full story. So here I am, ready to start fresh. Every time I promise myself that I will update, I never do, but this time I want to stick to it. This is a very important part of my life. Even if no one reads this, even if no one cares. I care and it is important to me. So here I am. I'm excited to see the process as time passes so that I can be consistent and not have to go back and start fresh again.